Not the One

from Z.L.O. (LP) 2015 by TarthariA

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lyrics

Not the One

Not the one whom I wanna be
Still think that I am
The one whom I wanna be
Is there a life so close to ideals
Hard to erase or never to see
Is there a man turning to fears
When simply nobody
Cares a lot what is happening around
Meter to left, centimeter to right
Easiest way to show your deep wound
Human can hardly see
Whom I wanna be… Not the one whom I wanna be
Do you think I` m not the one whom I wanna be
Is there a time to breath in all the air
Filled in with smells I used somehow to know
Who was that memory close to my fear
Could it be me
Hidden somewhere, protected by nobody
Trying to look really strong
Who gave me this birth, who invented the year
When everything gone wrong
Wrong turn you take, each step a mistake
No time to change at least anything
Good lord, take a look down, I` m here, I` m striving hard
Is it the way to live or is it the way I`ve got
To go on without a single interest to the fact
I was born and now dead without a single act
What I wanna be…I` m not who I wanna be
Wrong time & place, turning your face
Won` t help to collect all parts in one puzzle called life
Not the one whom I wanna be
It` s hardly me
Is there a time feel ashamed and be doubting
Being on the right place, right country and time
Still I` m the one to talk about fear
Which is never gone
Slowly erasing myself from the planet
By fearing to know what I` m worth
Someone once told me you` re nothing forever
I believed her and now all because…
Not the one whom I wanna be
I wanna be me
Is there a life seen at least by a million
Everyone` s living like being all gone
Am I the one to question my fear
Not to stay “faded one”
Talking to myself and solving the problems
I surely know the problem` s in me
Me is the fear, me was the moment
Never to be
Wrong choice again, reflection knows who I am
But too late & humiliating to prove it
Someone wanted me to die for
Words I never believed in
How could I go on if life was never to begin
I grew up without a single chance to try become a man
Still alone and still not knowing who I am

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from Z.L.O. (LP) 2015, released October 31, 2015

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TarthariA Russia

Listening to TarthariA’s songs, you realize right away that this Russian band knows how to play. Anyway, TarthariA wavers between death metal and melodic metal. As if Deicide fu#ked Lacuna Coil, and their baby appeared to be TarthariA.